Wednesday, 28 March 2007

Where did the month go

Okay, so I realized by reading Coach's post that people actually read this thing. Not the people that I originally created it for to keep in touch with but people I like from the internet void. Strange really. So I've been knitting, and ripping because the heel on a sock is always too far out, and then I correct and re knit and then find that nope, I'm still f*(ked. But yeah. So I was not posting in part because I had nothing to show and in part because life has suddenly gotten very crazy. It is end of semester and everything is hitting the fan, including shit. I have a lot due, not a lot of time to do it. I'm having issues managing the stress and stuff and actually forgot, plain out forgot, to go to a class yesterday. Not good, not good. Especially seeing as there are only 4 of us in the class total. I really dislike that class though, but it is almost over. I am counting the days/weeks.

"I don't need sex, grad school fucks me every day..." Really enjoying that quote right now.

I've been going to a naturopath to try managing my depression that way, and it seems to be working. So long as I'm not doing school stuff (major stressor) I can function really well. I'm taking a crap load of vitamins though - I'll take a picture of them the next time I want to procrastinate... I just am having issues likeing what I'm doing right now. And seeing as I pay them to have me do most of it, and they pay me really well to do some of it (TA position) ... well I'm supposed to be liking this time in my life. I had a re-evaluation of what I want to do as a job after school (in like 4.5 years, ugh) and I think I want to stop most of the research part and concentrate on teaching at a small university. As it is, in 1.5 years I will be overeducated for teaching highschool - they won't hire me with a master's degree because they will need to pay me too much. Besides, teenagers are pricks and I couldn't deal with them like Amy Lane does. So small university or college, teaching biology/neuroscience/psychology. But it still means 4.5 years more of school.
I had some really good news the other day - I got a national scholarship - NSERC PGS-M - which means I won't be TAing next year (good because it will free up more time to get my degree completed, bad because I like teaching, good because it will be one less thing to juggle). It is a pretty prestigious award and I am proud of myself when I have time to think about it. Doesn't happen often right now.
I am alive and functioning right now - don't worry about me, perhaps send some good thoughts. I will be back with you within 2-3 weeks, if I'm not well - post on this entry to tell me to post. The comments are automatically forwarded to my inbox.

Saturday, 3 March 2007

on why i haven't written much

two main reasons
1) graduate school and a conference last weekend
2) off of my antidepressant meds for the first time in 8 years - thus depressed - thus not getting a heck of a lot done

but I have a half done WIP (no pictures) - it is gonna be a cover for a home made majik bag - you know those bags of beans that go in the microwave, I decided I could make one for the same price as buying one (or less) and have the knitting time in it (which means less money because I would be knitting something anyways...)

I gotta stop procrastinating so I leave you with yet another enlightened resolution...

In the year 2007 I resolve to:
Slap stupid people in the head.

Get your resolution here.