Monday, 22 September 2008

Time

I came to a sad conclusion a few months ago - there is never enough time.

I remember thinking in high school that my life was nice and full and to do more things would require planning and hard work. I didn't want to do the dishes or clear the table because I had SO much to do. The teenager's life is so full and busy and important is it not? And then I attended university for my undergraduate degree. I remember thinking that high school was a time of freedom, with something called "free time". As a university student I felt that now I was really busy. As the years progressed in my undergraduate life the feeling repeated itself - when I was in my final year and doing my entrance exams, my honour's thesis, and planning our wedding, I though, wow, I had so much free time in my first year of university... And again, this repeated when I was completing my master's thesis - undergraduates have so much free time - now I'm really busy and I don't know how I'll ever fit more things into my day.

Now as I start my PhD I realize that this is going to happen again - I'm a freakin' graduate student, I really should be smarter than this, it took me how many repeats to learn my lesson? And I figure it is only going to get worse when I graduate in 3 years, find a job, and have kids.

All this is a preamble to the fact that I want to learn how to spin but have no clue if I have the time or energy to do so. But if not now, when? I think I need to become a stay at home cat mom...

2 comments:

emma said...

I'm with you on this one. Wait 'till you throw some kids in - then it gets really busy. I finally realized that I only have time for two or three daily things in my life - say, kids, husband, and knitting. And absolutley everything else was relegated to the second tier. I felt busy because I wanted more in the first tier but all those things have to take turns. So seeing friends, seeing relatives, trips, reading (or some other such second hobby) were all jockeying for time.
But this thought actually helped me. For me, thinking like this helped me prioritize and feel less guilt about how hard it was to find time to have coffee with aq friend or get to the movies. I know where my priorities were and if I wanted to change them I could.
I just don't buy into the myth of the modern woman having it all.

Louiz said...

I was just about to say, wait until you have kids if you want to see "no time"... but I was beaten to it.

But spinning - that only takes 15 minutes a day or so...